I left Malaysia to continue my studies in Manchester in hopes of finding new lights while gaining new exciting experiences. I made a list of things to bring two months before and double, triple check them daily so that I would not miss out anything. On the way to the airport I always felt like I had left something and that made me panicked for no reason. As I went down through the escalator at the International Departure, I see my family and friends waving at me. Reality strikes me that 'hey maliha you're down here alone and you only got you and yourself to depend on now'. It really hurts. I was nervous but I knew it would be great for me but I was wrong. I arrived in hopes of warmth but I got rainy cold weather instead. When I wanted to buy flats I knew I needed boots even more and that me sad. I felt so alone and so attached to the people back home without knowing I had made them worried of my survival in Manchester. That's when I realise I do had left out something back home, and it was my heart.
I went through ultimate happiness and mega meltdown. It's been a journey with unexpected twist of plots in between. I went halfway across the world with a brave heart and never knew I would be missing Shah Alam too much. Who wouldn't? but with great companions I made, made me love staying there even more. I aIso went travelling all over the places I wish I had done before I was 20 but how selfish I am to say that for some people may wish for it before they were 30 or 40. I'm grateful to have seen beautiful mountains overpassing highways, to have experience renting a stranger's house over the holidays. There was never a time limit in achieving anything and always believe in yourself in taking chances because you'll never know what you'll miss out.
People say that being far away is hard and you can't survive the loneliness. Sad truth but I'm proud to say that it had been a year now since it happened and I'm coming back stronger than ever. Of course the resistance from crying at the airport is forever inevitable. And that's just because I'm happy to be surrounded by such wonderful and loving people.
To whoever who wish to be in my shoes then I wish you luck and welcome you to a journey no man can describe how it feels until you experience it yourself. Opportunity awaits when you're out of your comfort zone. And that is true! If you really want something, work on it (rather than scrolling your Instagram timeline and being envious of those airport farewell photos).
I'm literally writing this on my bed in Manchester at 3am in the morning (blame jetlag). and of course, because I miss people back home so much.